We are down to the final days. We have tomorrow and then we can start moving things over on Sunday afternoon. The movers arrive on Monday (Canada Day) morning to finish packing everything that we haven't and take it all to our new home.
It's very bittersweet. I am happy to be leaving here, but at the same time it is also very hard to be leaving the home where we lived with Katie.
Excitement is starting to set in now though :). I'm happy to be going through things and know that I am going to be able to sort through a lot of stuff during the move. During the last year I have gotten behind in a lot of my organization. I'm usually an extremely organized person, but over the last year I have been slacking a lot in this area. I don't feel too good about this. I go looking to find something and it isn't where I know it should be, so then I spend useless time looking for it. Sometimes not even to find it.
I need to fix this and work on getting everything all organized again. That is my goal starting now and continuing after the move.
The problem is ever since Katie passed I have not had the emotional energy to do half of the things that I used to and everything seems to be such an overwhelming task (my own mild case of SOD doesn't help with this). I managed to overcome a lot of effect of the emotional grief with therapy. Not all, but a lot. Then Juli's issues started surfacing and it takes a lot of my energy to make sure that she is happy, cared for and to help her through everything. With all of that, organizing stuff just started being too much of an overwhelming task and got put on the back burner. It was so much easier to take notes on paper than to spend the time/energy on the spot putting the information into my phone. But then I should have taken time later to put all of that information into my phone and I never had the energy or got the chance......
This happened with a lot of other aspects of life too. So many things I used to file when I got them and over the last year they just ended up in the "do it after" pile which never ended up getting done after lol. That pile is now overwhelming and it is frustrating and scary as this isn't me. It really started getting to me when I needed to find two things this week that I know I had and where they should be. But they of course are not there. Went searching through all of my unorganized piles with still no results and all of that wasted time and frustration. That was the breaking point for me. That and this move put together. Since I already have to move these piles I will take the same opportunity to commit to organizing them and putting it all away. This move is almost serving as an energy rush and burst of motivation for me.
I'm fed up of being disorganized. I remember the days when I used to put everything into my palm pilot and file cabinet. I could find anything in about 5 minutes as I knew exactly where it would be and it would be there. So as this chapter closes here and we enter a new life in the new place I am going to get all the materials I need and am going to file things into containers in our new home office. I have been told it is better to be more organized and have a less but manageable amount on your plate then to have a ton of stuff on your plate and have none of it organized. Makes sense to me.
I'm learning a lot about SPD and everything Juli is experiencing as well as relating it to my own issues. I need to be able to keep all of this info at hand so I can reference it when I need to.
In 48 hours we'll be moving things into the new place and preparing for the movers to show up on Monday morning. So good bye disorganized life and hello to getting myself back under control.
